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Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Tirindak Biodotin: Salam Perkasa Uniputra

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Tuesday, January 17, 2012

can't you just be mine?!!!

it is sad when we love each other yet we don't confess to one another?

is it dat hard for u to jz confess to me how u feel?

hanging by a thread doesn't make me feel secure!

touch me! kiss me! feel me! come take me higher!

Monday, July 4, 2011

weeeeeeeeee......lama dh x update blog!

huhuw..i can't remember when was the last time i updated my blog..hehe..busyness causes me so...there were many things happened to me since the last time i've updated my blog...BITTER...SWEET...watever we shall call that in life...

now...m back in swak for a long holiday...4 months..yet...m doing nothing at home...tot of working somewhere..however..i jz can't get my ass from jz staying at home watching tv...eating...n sleeping! haih...lazy piggy!

nayyy...i don't wanna talk more bout my laziness at home..haha..

let's begin with the gawai celebration at my kampung...my kpg celebrated gawai on 3rd june dis year...ada special ckit dis yr...the KALBAR-ians *actually kalimantan-barat pips* came to our kmpung to join us in the celebration. damn exciting! i tot of going to Bung Senja a.k.a Peak of Senja Mountain to welcome the Kalbar-ians...however..due to busyness in preparing kueh with my cuzzies..i couldn't meloloskn diri to go up hill..haih! jz watched em passed our house...they were so red! guys wore CAWAT! woooo....SEXEYH! hahaa...da ladies wore traditional costumes..bha..to be continued! so hot...

Sunday, December 5, 2010

im happy but a lil nervous..

derk! mcm la x kala..p kali tk la plg bez! in relationship lok bru luah prasaan..ya bez glak..haha..but u r too good for me dear..i felt so high when u admitted..i feel like da big earth is juz under my feet..since u entered my life..u coloured my blank world (though have been 'conteng' by many ppl)..heeeepiiiiiiiii....gudbye tetttt x nma sbnar! u have ruined my life n made my full of misseries...tq for 'ehem2' dat jz entered my life n wiped-off my misseries left by tettt..gth la! hopes konon..

apa2 pn i feel so hepi wif 'ehem2'..maturity..though c tettt pn muda setahun jak dr 'ehem2'..x nya jauh sgt pn beza..tp no maturity lgsng! yg pnting...aku bahagia! hahah..

Monday, November 15, 2010

cOunTiNg mY dAyS tO c mY hOmeLaNd..

hmm..its been about 5 months i left my beloved homeland..hmm..mesti byk perubahan..tp scra mikro la..i don think drastic changes will be done by swak government drastically..huh! in my dreams..haha..taib oh taib..when r u goin to step down from ur post? ish..apa ka kena mngena taib in my blog?! shuh! shuh! go away..haha..

back to my story..i miss la laksa swak..kolo mi swak..kueh chap..toink2..hehe..sdap..hm..its ok! a few days left..jz b patient my tummy..hehe..da 1st thing i'll do after i get in my dad's car is heading to siang2 batu 7 to get some laksa swak n tapau some kolo mi! huh! rakus nya aku..haha..ini lah akibatnya lama x mkn those food..hehe..if not jz go to my grandpa's house somewhere in BDC n have my dinner there..mcm biasa la..bawak muka x malu p mkn rmh org..hahah..

talking bout my grandpa' house, tba2 i terigtkn ashley..my beloved cute cousin..she jz celebrated her 1st bfday on da 6th nov..huhuw..how could they celebrated her bfday without me?! so sad..i bet she must be a very noty girl at her age now..haha..dh melalui proses 'ngedah'..panjat memanjat..abis la brg2 nenek aku..ish2..cie..cie..dats her nickname..cute rite? no more kreta sorong 4 her cz she's able to make some moves on her own. i hope she noes how to walk b4 xmas..hehe..

cie is holding da bottle of liqour..hehe..mo try ka ni?

pndai nya..pegang botol..mo celen aunty dia la ni..

hmm...da pics above make me wanna go back swak now! huhuw..go back to kpg n c my BOBOY..but my BOBOY is not at da kpg..he's workin! hahaha..can't wait to c my dog n cats! miz 'em..do i have to mention all da chickens kt blkg rmh tu? hahahah..no need la kn chicken2 tu..hehe..u guys will b slaughtered utk xmas ni..hihihihi...

xmas is comin soon..wish dat da comin xmas is full of joy n happiness..let da sorrows wash away by time..

Friday, November 12, 2010

i dOn nOe..i feel damn helpless..drOwning..breathless..CONFUSED!!!

sumtimes i feel so high..but sumtimes i feel like...urghhhh! i don noe how to express it in words...yeah! feelings can't b expressed through words..huh! but its da bez way anyway..u can't jz keep it 2 urself! if u do dat..u'll b insane..huh! sakit nya ati! ntah la..i don noe how to express it anymore...u don noe wat i think..wat i feel inside..though u've been asking 'SOALAN STANDARD' daily...

i have to face dis 'DAILY FEELING' everyday..WTH! y i jz can't get rid of dis 'DAILY FEELING'? really hurts me!!! everytime i listened to a hillsong ~BAPA YG KEKAL~ i felt so calm..dats y everytime when im in dis situation or feeling i'l listen to hillsongs especially dat song s mentioned b4...mcm skema jk..but dats da fact..try la if u feel dat ur life sucks! hehe..

hmm..back 2 da story..myb u never noticed wat happened to me cz u r way too far from me..huh! again..DISTANCE IS AN OBSTACLE..i hate distance! makes our life misserable..full of misseries! bcz of distance i noe u..but distance also can't help me to 4get u if @#$*&...cz ur a 'boy jz next door' n i'l owez c u..y?! hmm..myb i sounded immature..myb i sounded childish..watever it is larr...

huh! wat i need now is peace..n oso FAITH, HOPE & LOVE! so..live a healthy lifestyle! huhuw..apa ka? maka xda knak mengenak da juak..angol na jua palak ku! dh la brapa x ckup tdo..dtg gk mslh..nng sakit ati sakit badan sakit rmbut..eyh! apa ka rmbut ndah..jz arap la nya fhm..im giving u hints everyday n i don noe if u understand all da hints given to u..ssh kn if PJJ? PERHUBUNGAN JARAK JAUH...huhuw..

moral of da story..try not to get involve in unnecessary things n feelings cz they will make ur life full of sorrows..though no one can sees it with their naked eyes but da truth is u r MERANA! don beware of depression as it may harm ur life and affect ur studies..talk to sum1 dat really close to u..o jz write down anything dat can express ur feelings n thoughts!!

Sunday, November 7, 2010


finally...after few days ur gOne withOut a trace...i finally found u n i feel so high! im so gay now! hey! gay dOes nOt Only refers tO hOmOsexual! gay alsO means HAPPY! u dOn believe me? try tO search in da dic. hehe..y am i sO gay?! as stated earlier...i finally fOund n cOntact wif sOmeOne dat i've been waiting fOr these few days...da lOng wait really tOrtured my heart...

i hate tiredness...tiredness has retarded Our conversatiOn jz nOw...huh! but..yet..i still x blame him cz his jOb needs his cOmmitment...hmm..dat is One Of da risks dat i have tO face when tO have relatiOnship with sOmeOne dat is wOrking n nOt a student like we dO...but his maturity has inspired me tO mOve On n tO appreciate my life...

wat dO we need in LOVE?
and of course

i've made a step 4ward jz nOw as i tOld him nOt tO 4get tO text me everyday thOugh he's busy with his jOb...to avOid wOrriness in me..is dat a step which i shOuld be prOud Of? hahaha..i never ask him tO dO sumthing..cz im i think he knOws wat he suppOse tO dO..

jz hOpping dat Our relatiOnship can gO futher than nOw cz he's a nice guy i ever met...pOliteness n myb handsomeness have captivated me tO like him! awesOme feelings...dOn feel annOyed with da way i expressed my feelings cz u r da One dat chOse tO read my blOg..hehe..

* read wat is written On da pOster..

                ~thanx cz wanna read 'em..thOugh a lil bit mencarut..hahaha..~